Capital idea Reading/Writing
Topic: Plan for the future
I have so many plans for my education in the future. I want to earn my Associates Degree in nursing at ACC. I want to get a job in a hospital as a nurse. I want a career where my daughters can say what their mother does, with pride. Now that this semester is over, i have one more thing I HAVE to focus on…..MY WEIGHT!!!
After i had my youngest daughter, i weighed the most i have ever weighed and i hated it. I left the father of my children, i got dumped by another guy that i REALLY liked at the time. I just was a mess. The guy that dumped me, motivated me to lose the weight. I decided to join Weight Watchers, i made sure to be on the treadmill 3x a week for 30 mins or 3 miles. At a time, i set a goal to work out every day for 90 days. The weight just flew off and i lost 60 lbs. I was so close to my goal weight. I don’t know why but for some reason, i let it all go. I gained it all back.
My wake up call. My weight is back up, i am single..still. I am depressed and lonely. I love my girls and they make me happy but sometime you just get lonely for the other kind of connection. I blame my weight. I tell myself if i lose weight i will find someone, or no one is interested in my because I’m fat. I have no motivation. I know what i need to do and i have done it before but i just have no drive to do it. I want to lose the weight and wear a bikini for the first time.
I was recently diagnosed with hypothyroidism. An under active thyroid results when the body doesn’t produce adequate thyroid hormone, thus affecting both normal brain, mood, and body function. I did my research and discovered it is the cause of so many thing that i have going on right now.
- Unexplained Fatigue (Yep!!)
- Digestive Upset
- Weight gain (yep!!)
- Depression (yep!!
- Hair Loss (Yep!!)
- Dry Skin (Yep but im a lotion freak)
I had an excuse of all of those! I blamed it on other things. When i was told i have hypothyroidism, i got upset. I don’t want this. Its common on my mom’s side of the family. I see a specialist on 4/20 (no weed jokes) and the i will be put on thyroid medicine.
What i want:
- To feel better
- To lose the weight
- To be more active with my girls
- To work out 3x a week again
- TO WEAR AND LOOK GOOD IN A BIKINI
- to rub it in thy enemies faces ( i know it sounds crazy but at the age of 30 and still get harassed and people call me fat
- to not be the fat funny friend
I have alway been looked at as the fat friend. I am also the goofiest person ever so i am the fat funny friend. I go out to a bar or a country club with my friends and they are the one the guys go for. I am just the fat one that breaks the ice and keeps the conversation going. I plan to end that THIS YEAR!!
I am 30! this should be my year and i will make it my year. I want to lose at least half of my goal by my birthday 8/14! I plan on using this to keep up with my blog and to document my transformation!
I will let you know when i start